I am too tired to wait when I know it will be to no avail. I don't wish to irritate you either by calling and calling. Since, you can't even spare a thought for me, I've got nothing to say either. You have the right to be mad at me, but it's not a good idea because you are dwelling about it for too long. I don't how to pacify you, comfort you. I have tried and I don't know the result yet. I don't know what more can I do to make you smile again. I know I need to make it all up to you, but I've tried my best didn't I? And in the end, I get all these in return. As must as you said I deserve this, I'll suck it in. I am all forlorn and I'm at my most unbelievable state of mind that this is to happen when we have better things to deal with. And I can't believe we drag the matter for so long. Oh my God, why of why baby?

I want to talk to you, but I couldn't find the perfect time either. I don't how to start all these again, I'm not used to us fighting since we have not for a period of time. How to handle these? I hope you are there, when I come around to meet you. Please, don't put this to a disappointment.

I miss you, Hamirul Hasraff.

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