Tuesday, May 27, 2008'♥
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known -
Oh Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worseInto your own all 'cause you won't listen
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
read this carefully
currently , im in no mood at all , really .
and dont ask the obvious things people .
i guess you guys have read my tag board and you know wads going on right ?
so , all your doubts are answered .
i aint wanna talk about us .
i aint gonna be an ego for now .
its just that , some things are better to let it deplete with time .
i dont wana touch about us , because it hurts me the most .
i did play my part , didnt i ?
to try to talk to you , to be nice to you , to be wad you want me to be , but i guess ive not done it all because u still want the best part of me .
wads more ? ape kekurangan nye diri i nie ?
wad makes you think you are so perfect , you are so right ?
i had enough dwelling over small things .
now you know it hurts right when our 18 months screwed us up ?
now dats how i felt for the past two months .
and gave you the chance to be a better man .
you want me to think the good side of u . have i not been doing now ?
now then you start realising ? because all you think was urs , selfish !
BUT , i aint going to blame you for whatever that had happened .
i had enough of begging and kneeling down to you .
am i not sacrificing any ?
go and get a bitch and see how well they can treat you .
you will be kissing their ass i tell you .
ill give you what you want .
if you think thats the best right
let me tell you this ;
LIKE YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN .
let this breakdown be real , i had enough of trying to move on but i always turn back to you .
lets get this over and done .
to people who have been helping me , motivate me , thanks alot ..
and kak ca , i'll listen to your advice .
i know you want him in our family .
but i cant . and i will never .
lets make it end okei .
im sorry sibs , mom .
im just a failure in life .
you left mi in tears .
fareez , tekkaire of urself and think of the bright future that awaits you .
im here , praying the best for you .
thanks for everything .
maybe you just dont see things which is worth to take it as memories .
im no longer beside you , to wake u up to school , to wish you goodnyte before i doze off .
but one thing for sure , u will always be in my heart .
you're on my heart just like a tattoo.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008'♥
randomly on lily's request . i have decided to do it since ive not done so before. well , it plays around with your brain kan . questions tat you never thought of.
- at what age do you wish to marry?
24 OR 25 . my friend told me , the fertility rate is high at that age . LOL ! doesnt even concern me in the first place .
- study hard or play hard?
study hard , obviously . play hard sounds so wrong
- who is the person that you can trust the most?
my mother and boyfriend & bestfriends
- do you thnk you have enough confidence?
i think around 80% . the 20% goes to : shaking legs while standing when i do powerpoint slides & voice trembles when singing on stage.
- if you have a dream come true, what would it be?
i would want to have a car , stable career and finance . bright future ahead . be a teacher ?
- do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
of course i do . thats what my primary 3 teacher told me .
- what is your goal for this year?
pay all my debts , be happy and pass all my modules with a GPA 3.2.
- do you believe in eternity love?
nahh . that was zaman romeo & juliet
- have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
of course i dont . ill owe their family sia if the someone commit suicide . id feel guilty for the rest of my life because of me being a self-centred person .
- what feeling do you love the most?
happy , crazy , kecoh !
- what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
understanding , trust , lovable , adorable , cute , not irritating .
- what feeling do you hate the most?
sad, angry [i missed a lot of fun when im in this state]
- do you cherish every single frenship of yours?
of course i do . if not , i wont cry when i lose my friend .
- do you believe in GOD?
of course i do . i aint a free-thinker .
- what do you think is the most importt thing in your life?
my pumping heart , my mother , my wallet , mp3 . hmm , my assets ?
- who do you hope to be there with you always?
my boifren .
- who is your best friend?
noorilyana bte nooresani
nuraniza anis bte aziz
nurul faizah bte samsudin
- who cares you the most?
my mother i guess ((:
- what is trust?
trust happens when you start confiding your problems with someone and when you believe in whatever that person says to you .
- who do you think deserve your love?
someone who is always there for you when you need him badly .
console and comfort you .
instrustions : remove one question from above and add in your personal question. make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. list them out at the end of your rant. notidy them in their tagboard that they have been tagged. whoeeer does the tag will have blessing and i've tagged.