Sunday, December 30, 2007'♥
ive been craving to blog but i donno wad to brood about .my weekends were super duper lame !byg kn i stay at home on saturdae ? dat is so not me ok ?i usually find for a place to chill .but anw, there was this one time whereby i went to kallang .i tot of chilling at the new shopping centre at kallang , the leisure park .to search for the place realli pissed my boifye and mi off .so after 15-30 mins of walking , finally we saw it .wads more ? the place is just open , but no many shops are open .certain onli . so we had thoosai at the foodcourt cause there is no malay foodstalls there .moreover, i dont want to consume heavy meal . (:after which we chill out at a place near indoor stadium , i cant recall wads the name of the place .and tell you wad ? the place kn super duper giler babi romantic okei ?the place where i called it the second esplanade .with unnecessary people around like mats and all . no offence .next , lets talk about my health .i am not ok these few days .have been suffering from giddy and all .there are others more but i dont wanna talk about it. i need to go to the doctor and to go for a check up .yea , im running out of time people .will update soon !
things has been quite hectic these days .
cristmas was great. i spent both of my non working days with him .
followed by two days of working .
shit, my body seemed so lethargic these few days .
thanks to it and i have no mood currently because im not feeling well .
and i pretended to be fine in front of everybody & i dont wish to be a burden to anyone .
let me face all these alone .
so my besf and her boifye patched up .
yea ! i was so estatic by it . she has been crying day and night but no matter what , i never fail to be with her and cheer her up .
so try to change okei ? u niid my help just beep me up .
anw, countdown , im in doubts right now .
shud i go or just stay home ?
i ought to be bored if i were to stae at home and if i go out, it is going to be crowded out there .
so what shuld i do ehk ?
mm still tinking .
update soon people .
yana, asl tk on9? kite nk chat2 ngn u but ure not there when i online .
i miss you okei !
Monday, December 24, 2007'♥
im updating oke people ?sorri la , bukan tk nk update , tapi tkde mase n connection beb .busy woman la kate kn .things has been totally fine these few days .i went m.i.a because i balik umah nenek at JB okei ?relax my mind . so ive decided to take a break .i just want to stop all those fight .and yea !yana no matter wad , i wont forget your 25th month with your dearest okei ?and mine is like 2 days away .still thinking on what should be done on our 13th monthsary .i donno wad to update la .dah la nk kene pki usb cable nk store gbr .malas nye .yana , i work at mi sis place .nk keje childcare centre?nk engllish ker ? aku d7 mcm mane ehk ?LOL .tgu result lagi la ginik .but people ill update soon okei !baby , thannks for the message in my sis car .i noe how much i mean to you now .you made me blush ok .3 words with thousands of reasons behind it .and yea , thanks for being there .i noe i went mia , uve been searching for me high and low .and i love you just the way you are.ill update soon (:night people.
Friday, December 14, 2007'♥
this was meant to be a random post. u dislike it im sorry , i just feel like sharing .[ swear to god i dint fight with my bf ]well, sometimes i just dont understand what one wants in a relationship .i cant deny the fact every single human beings have ego , but what matter most are how big the egos are .well, people cant totally blame the girl for evrything that happen .girls react such way because they have reasons behind it .maybe they want you to understand how they feel and they want you to change .but guys things the other way , and that girls are filled with ego .please , dont get it all wrong .girls will constantly remind you to stop hurting her because once it hurt, the world starts to change . or worst , the love may just fade away .when girls start to give up , then guys start pleading . oh come on , wheres the love , initiative , give and take and all ?the promises you have made on the first day of the relationship ?cant you think about the sacrifices the girl has made ?when shes there all beside you ?when she is even willing to spend a minute or two just for you when she has other things to do ?guys are just guys . thats right .sori to a certain extent , im just sharin my point of view .sometimes , i couldnt get the definite answer to myself .to my dearest besfren .i noe how you feel right now .i noe the past is haunting you down but dont give up ok ?you guys have made this far . dont throw the rship away .think about the best moments in life , the anniversary , time spent together .if things doesnt go your way , change it . maybe a new strategy is needed .i still remember those time when i was down .you gave mi a sound advice .its hard to stand up after a hard fall , but no matter what you have to face it .to stand on ur two feet is never easy .work things out , im sure it will work .maybe another heart to heart talk ? remember ?thats what you told mi .if there is a need to cry in front of him , cry then .maybe that is the onli thing you can afford to do and prove to you how much he means to you .i m not trying to say that my relationship is perfect but im here to help you .if you want me to be there to help you and cheer u up , i will .thats wad frens are for right ?so wadeva decision that you have made , ill owaes support you .we should help each other .and i love the way you guys are .you guys are simply sweet .stay strong ok ?ok im bleaarggghin .im dozing off now .nite people (:
Thursday, December 13, 2007'♥
yesterday was absolutely marvellous !
so my faci actually paitao me saying that the class will end at 315.
but the fact is the class finished at 400.
so i rushed all the way to cwp to meet my yana .
she accompanied mi to cwp to search for a necklace.
so i keep on comparing but in the end i bought a black one .
i thought of buying earrings but no money .
i had my lunch cum dinner at banquet .
i had fried kueh teow while yana had chicken rice .
while we eat , we chat , share our things ; girls talk .
then we sat at civic centre .
she helped mi out with my RJ and we do more chatting .
sharring of stories through pictures and lastly we cam-whored .
yala , i appeared to be the one very malu u noe .
but anw , i pulled it through .
not forgetting , ps-ing with yana .
so i called it a day .
thanks yana , but no matter what , if u need someone to confide with , im alwaes here for you (:
dont keep quiet and dont feel that ure all alone , cause u alwaes have someone to count on and a shoulder to cry on .
for wadeva decision that you have made , i ll alwaes support you .
so stay hapi and strong !
mother and sister fetched mi at lakeside .
so went home .
mother asked mi to order KFC , so there again .
haha . u noe wad i mean .
ure busy , i understand .
ape bolei uat kan .
sufferings . cause im missing the best part in us .
but it is missing now .
ok people , holidaes is like lusa !
and im not comiing to sch tml . self declared hols ok !
mom asked mi to accompany her to science centre with my nephew .
ill be there for u la mother !
you rock man !
thanks mom , cause youre always there when im all alone (:
wonder woman !
Wednesday, December 12, 2007'♥
i went to school for the sake of sitting for my UT .
after which i went back home .
so lebahku fetched mi at woodlands .
i accompanied him to his place to change because he got work to do .
sad , cause i dint get to spend my time with him . its okei (:
i tot of going back home but mom ask mi to go eunos with her to pay a visit at my sis-in -law house.
i actually get the chance to grab two tops . credits to mommy !
a red polka dot and a tube dress .
im so in love with it . thanks mommy (:
i cant wait to wear it on saturday .
i met my sister-in-law and my new born newphew .
his face looks solidly like my brother ; so adorable (;
i have nothing better to do there so i edit picture of my family and him .
i watched dis indonesian reality show , its really sad .
its about a gf who caught his bf red-handed with another girl who is the gf's besfren .
[the gf get to noe all this by reading the besfren's diary]
she was utterly disappointed and asked for a break at the very second .
so the 'new couple' actually ran after her and went to the gf's house .
gf's besfren is trying to talk things out with her , but she get a tight slap in returned .
so, one day , the three of them met up; bf, gf and besfren .
initialy the besfren explained everything to her gf.
she seemed so jealous to see the both of them so happy .
despite all, she care so much about the frenship and she is willing to step back .
she love the frenship more than everything else .
gf was forlorn and she stood up and hug her besfren .
so the couples officially patched up (:
happi ending .
i nearly shed to tears while watching it .
it makes me think about my long lost besfren .
but i have to move on .
people have different behaviours .
it depends on whether we want to live with them or not .
random message :
someone dreamt of being a gay yesterday .
and i laugh my head off ! funny kn ?
anw , im gonna grab a necklace later .
anibody who is willing to tag this poor little girl here ? my boifye work la. ): hmm
take care people .
enjoy the pictures.
the ladies in the house .
hafiz, sleeping u have me in my arms (:
cute kn ? muke cramped sei
and she who makes my day.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007'♥
credits to me la (:
yesterday was not what i thought it would turn out to be .
ok great la .
spent the whole half of my day with him.
went to dhoby gaut , training and stuff .
and i reached home at 11 .
i was tyred by then .
and now i am sick , haiz .
and no one care .
so ill walk home ALONE .
can anione out there fetch me ?
i cant walk , and im weak .
yana , im here for you .
ill cry together with you .no mood to blog , just a brief explanation as to how i feel today .mood : suck , hopeless.useless people .
Monday, December 10, 2007'♥
weekend was absolutely amazing !
im enjoying my life right now .
you manage to make me smile after so long .
thanks lebahku (:
he came to my house to have his lunch .
it was supposed to be a mini-celebration for my sister and nephew berfdae but too bad ,
both couldnt make it .
so mother was extremely pissed off because a surprise can never be a surprise .
so baby came and cheer mother up * applause *
you see, he is a great boifie .
they really work together and shoot mi off in my ass ok .
I AM GOING ON DIET OKEI ?
i have to . if not baby have a partner to share the common stuff; FATS with mother .
thanks ehk l:
after we makan , he iron my clothes while i make up .
and he wait for me .
so off we went to dhoby gaut for an interview .
everything end at 8 . so we walked all the way to marina square .
we had KFC while i ate cheese fries . the fact is im full .
mcm mane nk kuros ginik , tgk mataer kite ajak pegi mkn mane .
so nxt, we went to starbucks. ordered caramel , bought cigarrettes .
and as we lay our ass by the stairs , his cousin called and asked to come down to clementi for a bowling session .
we had a great time .
at 1++ reached home .
in order to make up those surprises for my sister , we actually went to her house .
i asked baby to come along but initially he gave mi tons of excuses .
nemind , a surprise .
a small family gathering .
so actually , my FAMILY is still surviving without that brother . [if you know wad i mean .]
the bond is still as strong as ever .
so a hapi lovey dovey bdae to my beloved sister, noriashah
and a hapi belated mated berfdae to my sweetest nephew, danial halifi .
may god bless you all and gdluck in future endeavours .
you guys are loved <3 now let the pictures do the talking aite . update soon.
a hug i never wanna let go .
my face abit senget la .
starbucks is LOVED <3
the one in stripes , hapi bdae sweety
hapi bdae kakak
after a tiring dae , she nvr fail to smile
come bb piyo piyo, you have mi in my arms .[my bantal bushuk ok ]
Sunday, December 09, 2007'♥
i just cant seem to understand with what is revolving around me .we were actually brooding over small matters . sometimes , i just feel i could surrender , but when i look on the memories that we had spent together , it is not worth to close the book . i noe theres more to discover along the way .nothing in this world can make me happi .like seriously .even he cant make me happy .asking for a favour is like begging for money .i cant describe how my feelings is like right now .whenever i think of it , i would break down and cry .thats it , as simple as that to descirbe my feelings .i noe in relationship, there are give and take .i can give and take with you , but did you caree and bother to listen to me when i ask for a simple favour .i noe how it feels if i turn your favour down , so do i .but , the problem is , u keep turning me down .i wanted you to complete the whole day of mine, just me and you .how long have we not spent talking/time with each other ?theres always something occured at the very last minute , and i noe i cant blame you for that .it was unintentionally .well, i guess if i were to type down all the sorrows im in now, i might as well vommit every single shit inside here .and i noe a day to vommit it out is not enough .so i guess , ill leave evrything in my lappysome things are better left unspoken here .i noe this blog is puclicised and i dont mean to pull someone's moral down .so i guess next time , illl just lay all my sorrow in Microsift word. that sounds better .i let out my anger and not hurt anyone at the same time .let me face all these alone , i m totally fine with it .im like so used to heartache like dat .swear to god , i aint going to let out my anger animore .im gonna get myself bz with things that im not busy with previously .get wad i mean ?go figure .so , ill onli rant when im happy .so dont bug me to update when i dont .cause i swear to you ,those were the unhappy moments .
Wednesday, December 05, 2007'♥
the lesson is so MEREPEK ok ?i cant seem to absorb the term realism and anti-realism .and i have to swear that my facilitator today is so lazy bump !he did not discuss the questions stated in the worksheet but he actually sit down and stare at his laptop blindly .i am starting to build castles in the air ; thinking what will happen in days to come .i just cant stand today's lesson because it seems totally out of point and i see no relation with what i have yet to study next year .maybe a year in this school is just wasting of time and squinting of eyes to school .but anyway , i have yet to pull it through .& im 7 lessons away from holidaes !3 module UTS more to go and im done .shake leg for holidays ok ?i have set many plans for holidaes , and i cant wait for that man !& dear , wadeva we have planned , jgn tk jadi ok ?ill be damn bored if it turn out to be otherwise .now i must say , i can feel the love in the air .a yr and a month , im counting down (:well, thats called love right ?(:my lollipop , stay sweet ok ?dont turn it sour after i suck it halfway ok?fighting everday is not making us obtain a greater bond .but more irritated by each other right ? i noe .let it be this way .undefined love . no predictions , no nothing but pray things would go the way we want it to be .stay happy people . (:update soon .
Tuesday, December 04, 2007'♥
ENUFF MEANS ENUFF OK ?SHIT BABICIBAICIKOPEK
Monday, December 03, 2007'♥
i dont want to talk about what happened during the weekend .there are good and bad part for weekends .the motherfucking fact right now is that i m in no mood .like seriously .whatever happens and revolving around me , i wish it doesnt exist either .why do i have to face all these?u ignored mi ?u scolded mi ?sometimes i just wonder , do you trully love mi ?was that meant for hope or just to satisfy your needs ?whatever it is , no matter how bad that can be , im just trying my best to be optimistic .maybe, it happened for a reason .or maybe i am the one to be blamed and im the cause for you to react in such a manner .i would rather sit in my room and cry all day long than try my best to figure it out .because no matter how hard i try , i styll coudnt get the best answer .will you cherish the 1 year relationship with mi ?again , im wondering .if confiding is also a mistake , tell me .if it is , then define the word love for me again .because i cant understand what does love really is for you .oh gosh , im so sad right now .i just need you to cure my heart .i cant hold on to these any longer .if you come across my blog , i would like to say this .please , do something .i do love you . but why are you doing this to me .dont sae that you dont know .if you start to feel neutral towards me , ok , tell me .if happiness is what you want , id go .if you think you cant hold on to it , tell me .but dont give mi all these arguments and behave like that and you want me to seek the answer all by myself.and i cant do it .unrequited love again ?haiz , can people help mi ?please talk to mi .i want that heart to heart talk right now .now this is the first time i blog while shedding my tears .i just cant bear all these .i tot after one year, it would be new and we start all over again .but the matter is , the past haunt us down .