Saturday, March 15, 2008'♥
i dont wish to talk about someone in my blog and also i dont wish to hurt anyone's feeling . but at the same time , if i were to ignore , giving you chances after chances , i will have yet to deal with my own emotions if you keep on hurting me . i noe we should forgive and forget but when it comes to me hurting you unintentionally , whenever we brood over small things , will you forgive me wholeheartedly?im sure you are bearing grudges with me , which im so sure that it is unhealthy . if you say yes , think again . now go and make some reflection . when i hurt you , did you just shut yourself up , ignore me for few months , give me excuses not to meet up whenever i give you a call ? well , if you wanna say that it is karma for me , i dont think so . because i didnt do that to anione before . i will just makesure that someone will wake up and not repeat his/her mistakes . i noe nobody in this world is pefect , but repeating your mistakes is as though you have not learnt from it and you still didnt noe how hurtful it can be to the other party .
i aint a doll , im telling you . when in times in need , you called me ,begged mi to meet you up i the middle of the night because you were in deep shit . and because of you , i neglected my relationship just to make sure that you are okei . but how about him ? it is unfair for him because he has the right in this relationship . moreover , i have been fighting with mother since im back home late at night almost everyday . is it fair for me , get a scolding for my mother because of me sacrificing my time for you and not for her when you noe i should prioritise her more ?
and im sure , your family hated mi too because they thought i taught you all the bad stuff which im really sure and i swear to you i dont . but where is my right in this life ? i did nothing to harm you , to make you sniff glue or aniting ! nor do i do that , because i noe it is so wrong . but if you keep on putting the blame on others and you keep on pretending to be the angel , then forget about your place in heaven , because i noe mercy lies . it is okei if things got into this way , because i noe those are challenges which im suppose to deal with , and i dont care what people said about me , and i am not even afraid about it because i dont do it either .
but dont make me go to the extent where i will embarrass you . if you want to play a dirty game , ill make sure you lose in it because i like dirty games .
so what if i sound so bad in this post . i dont like pretending to be good in front of others or whatsoever . i prefer people who reveals their true colors than hiding them . because org diam-diam lepu tu la yg lagi jahat .
ok stop it here . and im sure this will be the first and the last time im going to talk about u in my blogg , because i noe im wasting other people's time to read it when it doesnt even concerns them .
[this is what happen near the exit of kje , woodlands.]
ok mas selamat , you have to pay for these okei .
you made those lorries' driver endure in the jam for hours .
and it is not fair for them when they are just working , but anyway , im proud of singapore , because when it comes to this , they make sure that everything is okei and that you [mas selamat] wont slip out of the country easily.anw , i pitied the poeple who are stucked in the jam , but the police are just playing their part so i just want you to play your part too. it is for the safety for the whole because you noe he is a dangerous man . i hope he will get caught reall soon . because people are so frustrated with him . he makes people waste time searching for him when there are other things which are better to deal with .
so anw , my sister shared a story with me yesterday .
in the morning , while she was at her void deck , heading to the multi-storey carpark , an old man approached my sister .
man : is that mas selamat ?
sister : where is it ?
man : the one walking , with his left leg limping .
sister : oh no , that is an achi [an indian lady]
man : ouhok . but that person is limping . must be mas selamat .
sister : no la uncle , itu achi la .
you see how singaporeans really care about their own country . we are aware of what is happening . and as a resident , we are hear to help and gather information whenever possible .
still hunting you down .
and baby , i love you just the way you are now . you are great .
update soon ! (: