Sunday, January 24, 2010'♥
I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't feel good today. I sulk since the time when I wake up early in the morning. I had a terrible dream last night, and I really could not even remember what I have dreamt about. Astaghfirullah'alazim. I cried when I was concious, and I cried terribly even at this moment. I just don't understand why am I hiding all my feelings inside me. I don't share, I keep things, everything to myself. Because I may hurt anyone and I don't need any disputes to occur. So please, respect me. I need some time alone.
I am not referring what's below to anyone. So please, stop asking me like as if you deserve a place here. Well, this is something random, it just comes by, and I feel like talking about it.
I am always trying my best to be nice to everyone, but I wonder, why do I get all these in return? Why do people have to stab me right from the back when I am nice in the first place to these humans? They are just so unappreciative and tend to take things for granted. That sucks because you are being judgemental towards me. But that is okay, because this is what they call it life. We can't shut someone's mouth but all we have to do is to just bear with the pain. I am fine, and I will always suck it in. But everyone has limits to their patience, and if you go overboard, I'm going to cut you into pieces.
Back to reality, I am in a depression mode. A bad disorder. I mean it. I ain't kidding. I need people around me to support me, because I can feel my personality is shrinking and I get to see myself being an introvert nowadays. I need people around me so that I can build up on myself again.
Labels: depression mode
