pardon me fo i have draft my previous entry.
fo some reason or excuses, you decide.
because th bottom line is, i still respect you as someone in this world.

ive been thinking a lot lately.
so if there is more entries in here, its good sign fo everyone.
if not, it will never change.

and yes, im having a fever now.
i sound pathetic right now.
can anyone take care of me.?
just anyone out there who is so kind enough.?
because apparently, im leading my life alone.
im suffering from a massive depression.
history is repeating itself yet again and i see it coming.
and ive been crying fo countless nights, without anyone knowing this.
yes, ive been keeping a lot to myself lately.
swollen eyes.
swollen heart.
what else.?
i wish im dead any minute from now.
though ive created a lot of sins in this world and im not prepared to die.
i sound like a loser now, but i really cant bear to go through all these again.

on a lighter note,
im going to have someone's laptop so i can webcam with my friends.
ouh great.! thank you fo helping me kill my time.

i wanted to say a lot here.
but i guess ill stop just here.
im really sick, my temperature is 39.1 degree C.
and my brain feels like exploding.
GOD HELP ME.!
and i cant believe im blogging now when im suppose to rest now.
matter of fact, i couldnt sleep because brain nerves are squeezing.


i need some time alone.
if i dont answer your call or messages or anything like that.
im really sorry.
if you want me to do this alone, ill dont bother you.
i guess ill have to get immune to all these.
this is like th... third time its happening.?
im probably able to know what am i to do later.

im gaining my weight.
im having greater appetite.
i rest a lot.
im hungry every now and then.
have been craving th most ridiculous food on earth.
like cupcorn with milk at JB.?
keropok lekor.?

i just need someone to be here with me.
but it seems so ignorant.
so yeap, ALONE again.

okay then, goodnight readers.
im not off to sleep just yet.
just need to stop crying and ease th pain.
okay go.

and i got this from facebook.
"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always
with the same person."