Tuesday, July 14, 2009'♥
i think i need to talk more here. lesson is such a bore, and im having bad stomache cramp fo two consecutive days. and tomorrow is my biggest event ever, and if it doesnt heal, im gonna get a D. god, i need mercy now.
people think that being th last child is great because they are pampered, they can get anything they demand fo when they start whining; just anything, you name it. and it is lucky, very much but hell no, it doesn't exist in me.
yes, i am envy with people who are being pampered.
"mom, i need this, i need that" and yes, th next day, they get a surprise on their bed. but no, i was brought up without a father's love, and mom has always been there fo me. and she always thought that she did not carry out her responsibility as a mother, but you did mother.
"can i have a new hp?"
"i need to shop"
"i need a new laptop"
"i wanna have a car license"
"im going back home late tonight"
"i need money fo etc etc...."
and my mom and sisters and brothers will tell me to start saving. gawdd .
with a weekly allowance of 50 dollars, im able to survive still, but mom is being stricter than usual. i paid fo my own bills and yet i dont complain because i know mom has retrenched. and i actually depended on my dad's monthly allowance that was meant fo me. but when i need money to pay fo school miscellaneous fees, mom seek me to pay with my weekly allowance. i cut down on my eating habit because i have to pay this and that. just how am i suppose to survive?
im a full time student and i cant do any part time job because year 3 is th worst year ever. with such economic crisis and time commitment, i could never get a job, but i tried my very best to break loose in everything, so that i can live like any pampered kids do. i deserve a better life, obviously, but it isnt th right time fo me to indulge myself in ease now.
good things happen to those who wait.
mom always said that. and i really wonder how is my future going to be like. will it be worth waiting? what if it remains stagnant throughout my whole life of living in this world. and i always tune in to you are not alone, just to make my life better. life is never easy, yes, i would have agree. because since young, i was trained to go through th hardships in life, and i think im doing just fine with it.
i just dont understand with people who keep on bugging fo these and that from their parents. we must always be thankful fo what we have achieved and obtained, never complain. because out there in th world, there are people who starve to death. th africans, i teared looking at them; they walk fo miles just to grab water, they eat dried leaves, they did not bathe. and seriously, if i ever have a chance to adopt them, i will. (thanks to MJ ehh, okay no link)
moving on, we should be grateful and never take life fo granted. always thank fo th help people have given to you, and never demand more. because, with more patience you have in yourself, th better outcome you will get in th future. appreciate th people around you, because you wont know how it will be when they are gone. to appreciate them later, will already be too late. be thoughtful, be wise.
in every obstacles that we took, its actually a stepping stone to success.
Thought of You @2:57 PM
