eve of weekend was splendid .
well , what more could i asked fo .
anws , bad news comes first alright .
my niece , nur haifa dania is in ICU . suffering from fits .
damn shes only 4 months old . i really pity her .
when i came down to take a look at her , she had all th tubes in her nose and mouth .
plus , her hands and legs are all tied up . ouh gosh , like macam org pesakit gile sia .
i cried when i looked at her .

mamat called me and asked me out .
it was a miracle on that day , when i wasnt expecting anything from anyone .
so yeah , we went out , th five of us .
so we headed off to sheesha . ouh gosh , i forgot th outlet's name .

(illahhh , kao tkde dlm gmbr . sorry yea . )
we had fun , snapping , feeling and everything .
especialy [DBF] who would always go like .
him : you , take my picture , cepat2 .
amik gambar tk perlu kanchong okay .
hahahahahaha . ouh wells , i smiled alot like after so long .
flashback flashback flashback . wow !

mamat , khai , amir and me ((:

th sweetest girl and me . ilahhhh

yeap , we had our late dinner cum supper at newton . makan besar kape .
and he finished up th rice that i couldnt starved it in anymore .
okay whatever lah kannn .

then we went off to upper seletar damp is it [DBF] (when was th last time i mention it sia) ? okay , i prefer to call it th lighthouse .
we smoked , we chilled around , mencari ketenangan jiwe .
we went home at 5 am .
and he spent his early morning with me all th way till 7 .
thanks fo th day [DBF] . i appreciate that a lot ((:

neither both of us expect things to end this way .
neither both of us would want things to go this way .
but if this is a challenge from God , i would have to face it with faith .
i know you never want this either .
i understand and get th whole idea of it now .
you are just so confused , as simple as that .
you left me , but its okay .
after all th confessions that ive made , and all th naggings etc .
i hope you would really listen to me fo th last time of what better things you could do in your life .
dont destroy it any further , its unbearable .
its easier when you have a hand to hold on to when you fell , but its hard when you have to pick up yourself after a hard fall .
and i hope you know how muc i really care fo you .
you are living in a world and not fantasy .
and i know , no one will care fo you like i do .
i knew you so well , even th slightest thing about you .
how could you leave me after what we have been thru .
i know loving me is not easy ; but you could have understand me better when im around .
why are you leaving all those memories behind .
why do you have to leave me .
you knew me so well , and why are you doing this to me .
are you taking my weaknesses as your strength ?
there are just too muc doubts about you .
if you could have cleared it away , id be glad .
but no , you left me in suc a state where i keep on thinking about th same old damn thing .

off now , enough .
and i guess what happened at 4 am in th morning , you made me realised uh .
its aching even till now .
and who is going to clean my wound ?
quesitions left unanswered .