things are different , yeap , and thats why i feel like talking here .
and no , im never going to talk about relationship .
everything goes on well between me and him , alhamdulillah .

i dont know how to put it in words.
how to create sentences that is stuck in my head.
i am sad , over certain things . i really dont know why .
ever since we have these misunderstandings , th day when we meet up , it felt so different .
maybe im a little emotional , but i just dont like the idea of it .
and with such issue , i would forgive and forget but i do create barrier too .
i just dont want to be hurt .
what niza told me is true somehow .
truth hurts and thats why you have to go and believe th lies .
i would understand if it happens once , but twice is something which i dont like it .
its as though you dont know how to appreciate me .
im busy with school and yet i do make some time fo you , but somehow , you just dont see it .
i backstabbed not to kill , but to make you realise .
i think we can never talk , never compromise . i dont know .
im just so confused .
if i were to run away one day and we didnt talk alot , i hope you would understand why it all ended up this way .
im really sorry but it hurts so much .
i never wanna lose a friend , who would want it right ?
but appreciation . we didnt talk when we met up , because i felt awkward .
stop it , if not i will go on explaining in detail .

and i know you are keeping things behind , i aint stupid .
if it is not , then why do i have to feel it ? maybe i love you as a friend too much .
and you kept things away because , maybe you thought i would blurt it out again .
but , its okay , i would understand .
if thats th case , i will walk away .
i miss you bestfriend _ _ _ _ , take care
and i think i never suit as a bestfriend of your .
im taking a step back , im sorry .