Tuesday, March 31, 2009'♥
im truly terribly down right now . i aint got th mood fo any update .everything that has happened was something i never expected . it happened so fast , and i really cannot absorb with just an explanation . though it is , i never wanna blame anyone fo it . blame yourself before others . im trying reall hard to blame everything on me . mixed feelings ? yeap im in deep shit , really .how should i let it out ? i dont even have th courage to .as far as im concern , i never wanna be judgmental . i always tried to calm myself down , but i really cant . i faced God , i pray , hoping that this heart will heal soon . i cried when i utter my prayer . i cant afford to tear while praying . ive never been in such a situation . what should i do ?how should i move on when my heart is still hear fo you ?how could you move on in just a split seconds . thats more like a lie . damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnya allah , ku doakan agar hambamu slalu tabah dalam menerima segala cabaran . akan ku kuatkan semangat ku ini untuk melalui hidupku seterusnya . apakah ini lumrah dunia ; tidak ku mampu untuk menelan segala penderitaan . namun aku tidak pasti . aku bingung . mengapakah hati ini terlalu menyayangimu setelah ape yg telah dikau lakukan . apakah ini cinta sejati ?akan ku berikan dikau masa untuk berfikir , menentukan segalanya .semoga engkau fahami akan perasaan dan penderitaan yang aku lalui . amin amin , rab bana 'alAmin . hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku .these days you barely even say my name
like you dont really feel th same
im wondering whats to blame
these nights , i fall asleep wondering where you are
it feels like we're falling apart
and it's totally breaking my heart
cause if being with you means being alone
and never know when you're coming home
then i guess im better off on my own
but i cant move on
cause that needs forgetting everything we had
instead i keep running , keep running back
cause i keep forgetting forgetting you treat me so bad
so i keep on coming keep coming , i keep coming back
Labels: im bleeding when im alone
