it kinda weird to have me updating on a weekend , especially on a Saturday afternoon .
i am so bored & everyone else in th house is out fo shopping . mom asked me along , but to somewhere which i dislike to be .
im currently watching GGs1 , while eating fresh mangoes .

situation seems weird as it may seems to be & im trying to hold on to everything i can .
stabilizing my mood , immunity and health .
ive been eating alot , due to stress , with semester coming to an end , results , my last year in school and final year project .
contradicting , but i cant wait fo it to end ((:

forgive and forget
its kinda hard to let go off something easily , especially when you are really upset over something .
not that it only affects me but others around are badly affected by it too .
especially mother who has been raising her children but when everyone are fully grown-up now , she was left abandoned and just one person who just dont know how to appreciate her . i pity her . th incident happened last year , and till now , theres no good sign at all that hes coming to take a look at my mother . that is just so heartless . fo goodness sake , that is your mother , your one and only mother , th one who carried you in her stomache fo 9 months , she has been suffering a lot alright . can just just wake up and bring th joy back in her life ?

she deserves a break alright . and fuck , you have been telling everyone even your daughter that you will meet your biological mother one day , well , i wonder when will that one day exist ? when shes lying on th bed , suffocating or when you suffer from an illness or an accident that you need to seek forgiveness from her before you go ? think ! you are not whom i know , you are a totally different person now . wait , if mom is gone one day , you will be th last person to know everything and you will only get to see her grave . read those words carefully , i aint kidding .

& Nora Binte Ismail , you are delivering soon right ? pray hard it will be a smooth one okay . cause God sees everything though i just cant accused you of doing it . and God is fair in every way He could . you play with it , you get it ? and please , that is my goddamn brother you idiotic sucker .

i had a tiff with my little niece last time .
and while i was on the phone with [DBF] last night , i was shocked to receive a msg from her on a typical night . she apologised and i was really touched by it . i thank God that she wake up th whole idea that she was rude and that she shoudnt be so impolite to her auntie . i forgave you long time ago , people are prone to make mistakes . but to repeat it , its as though , you are not learning from it . so please , if you have apogised to me , make it right this time , and know what you are doing . please , i am not interested bearing grudges with my own family members . it certainly did not bring any benefit in my life . i do hope you change fo the better aite .

im pretty happy that some things are okay , about my family . or just a little bit more effort , patience & time and im sure everything will be perfectly fine .

one more thing , i am really glad about is , everything went well fo me and [DBF] .
we did argue over small things , but everything is under control .
i love th way you are nnow [DBF] , you are th sweetest thing indeed that has ever happened in my life .
hold my hands and walk through everything baby ?
though i have not been spending much time with you fo th past two days , my heart is missing you badly .
lets chill out one day alright , baby ?