pardon me for my absence , AGAIN . hav been busy dwelling over some issues that can never be solved & hav been trying my best too to get myself stable again & juggle my time fo my loved ones .

you proved me wrong when i thought we are done with us . i can see you are suffering badly , i didn't mean to hurt you , you know me right ? i apologise for the shits that i have caused you , but things are just not meant for us . i can see that you try to gather all the energy that you are left with to work things out and make it right . & in th end , it turns out to be a disappointment . but i want you to understand whats deep down in my heart & please just dont make any assumptions because that is not th main reason . just and please understand the situation i am in now . you let me love you once , twice , and thrice . i never wanna regret . still , i am learning to get th 'love' definition right .
what ever that has happened today , which was the worst i supposed , ill just let it go . i dont see any point to still hold on to all these shit , scold you when i know i can solve it . thanks fo th hand approacch anyways . i appreciate the help . but to convince it now , i guess you're just a little too late .

in the meanwhile , fuck ares & internet connection ! im facing a hard time here & this little stupid laptop and connections are giving me another hard time . i swear i feel like dumping this laptop into the rubbish bin . laptop for sale , anyone ? heh

let me introduce , hamirul hasraff

we have been having a non-stop tiff fo quite sometime . a little misunderstanding which eventually turned into a chaos . that was the past . but now , everything has settled . i am happy , i hope you are too . both of us have our own reasons to everything and yet we never blame each other fo the cause .
though we fought , when i have problems , he will always squeeze in a little time fo me and attend to me . he will listen to everything , and decide what is best fo me . even till now , i will always have him by my side when im at my lowest . he will do what a man should do ; wipe those tears away and hug to show that he cares fo you .

you , i apologise for all the shits that has happened between us for the whole 2 years . i never know that it will get worsen back then . and since we are done with everything , thanks a lot . you show me th power of love & i really appreciate all your effort & sacrifices . & yesterday's convo , u said u wanna continue today , so i'm waiting like dat .

anw , im out of everything . fuck the people who ruin it ! thanks to kao , and because of that , the whole pham of mine porak peranda !

im not even looking forward to my 19th . fuck , i wish i could die now . a burden to them , kill me when im born .