i dont know why
i dont love you anymore
and though i try
its just not like it was before
i wish that i have reasons to be mad you
then maybe i would not feel bad for leaving you

though people may think that i felt nothing over the break up , you guys are wrong . i have my own reasons fo breaking up with him & now i am all disappointed over the issues that we have been dealing with . i felt all wasted . my efffort , my sacrifices was futile . well , i never want to dwell/stuck over the issues but hope fo a better tomorrow was all i could ask for .
let bygones be bygones aite ?
i would like to apologise fo all the shit that i have caused you , fo shouting at you over phone , fo hurling vulgarities at you . well , we have made a good decision . now all we can do is , let the matter rest and let fate decide it all .
i just dont like the idea of you putting all those sarcasm , fo people may think it was my fault fo doing all that .

ais , kita minta maaf byk2 , awak jage diri baik2 okay . kalau awak ada pengganti , jgn lah awak toleh belakang dan kite berdoa agar awak bahagia dan berjaya dalam apa2 bidang yang awak ceburi . kita minta maaf sebab kita tidak dapat menjalankan tugas kita sebagai kekasih awak , kita tak jujur dengan awak . mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya . tapi satu kita minta , sekiranya awak ada pengganti , janganlah awak mengguris hatinya seperti mana awak mengguriskan hati kita . terima kasih atas segala2 nya , kite bersyukur atas semua pemberian awak . terima kasih awak .

and to my dearest gf ;

babe , though i may stay far away from you , i am just a call away . i am sorry because i can never reach out to you today due to time constraint . i hope you understand , but i will come the next time round if there is nothing poping out at the last minute .
i really hope you can do it . give it the last shot . but remember what i tell you okay ?
think about it as a whole , dont stay about you being pity or anything , if it is love and you can see the future with him , go on , you have my fullest support .
but if things doesnt go the way you want it to be , be strong to let it go . i know you can pull it through . dont let it be a downfall on you okay ? i know you are strong and you can do anything to get the happiness that you used to have .
i know its hard to stand up afta a hard fall , but smile fo at least it has happened . because it helps you to grow stronger everytime , and no one else will know the reall you except for yourself . never feel that you are alone , remember you always have your family and friends to count on . i am here for you too . so cheer up okay ?

should there be any , i am only a call away aite ?
take care people .
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