hang on tight people , this is going to be a long long post .

thank you so much fo the wishes via friendster , messages & taggers , especially my babes , i appreciate it a lot . no words could describe how happy i am on my birthday . except for someone who have to turn me down . anw , to th loved ones who made my birthday happened , a big thank you . you know i love you people ((:

yea , mom bought the heart shape cake fo me . thanks a lot mother . well , i am not hoping any from you , because your everyday's presence is a present fo me . i appreciate all th effort and the support . though i may not utter th three words to you every night before i go off to sleep , every beat in my heart , it says , I LOVE YOU MUMMY ((:

hamirul hasraff , no words could describe how happy am i when you were there too to make my birthday happened . i really appreciate you fetching me from home , bring me out , spent our time fo more than 12 hours , catch things up & did a little bit of shopping . all th money , thank you so much . i swear im happy when i had your hands around me ((:
an apology fo i turned you down back then when you have saved up all th money just to make me happy on my birthday . i didnt know , neither do i did it intentionally .

afta all the effort and patience fo merely 2 years , i thank God , fo he made me be a stronger person & made me realise how true my love is fo you . though things have changed now , i aint gonna make you confused over th questions i have asked , but we will go with th flow aite ? let God decide what is best fo us now . though we are friends now , you still treat me like how you used to be . well , what more can i ask fo right ? all that , a big big thank you .

find a heart that loves you at your worst & arms that holds you at your weakest .
now thats what i call it my man ((:

26 august
accompanied mother to Johor Bahru cause my lovely auntie is admitted to hospital due to dengue fever . my mind wasnt at ease when i heard the news , because she is th only aunt who have been singing me lullaby songs since young , who pampered me with books , who gave me a lot of money fo shopping and paid my expenses .

when i came into the ward , i saw my auntie taking a stroll of walk back to her bed . she looked at us & i felt like crying at that moment . even if she is sick , she pretends to be fine . i was shocked when her eyes was swollen , but she told me she have been sleeping a lot due to boredom . she keeps complaining that living in the hospital is very boring , but nothing can be done , she have to get well soon . who wants to stay in the hospital in th first place ? yea , the nurse gave a little description about her condition , which to me is quite serious . her low blood pressure is increasing , and she is losing a lot of platelet in her body .

get well soon okay ? i miss you . i dont even want to lose you , because losing you is like losing a mother .

27/08


i met up with him in the late afternoon to hit JB when we were supposed to meet earlier . since it was raining , we have to delay our time and did friendster hopping . i told him the latest update , and he went , ' merepek seh ' . exactly lor ! like so get a life kan youu ?
we did the usual routine and made our way back to Singapore .
went to Toa Payoh to collect my pay . we have our lunch cum dinner at Fork & Spoon and we laughed our heads off . both of us had th same meal - fried fish soup and we shared banana milkshake and mango juice . we sat there fo quite some time before heading off to sim lim square . yea , he brought me there because i want to purchase an external HDD . my laptop is lllaaaaaaaagggggiiinnnnngggg . it is cheap , but i am afraid to ask mother fo th money because i know it cost her a lot . but its fucking cheap when i get 320 GB imation HDD for only 168 bucks right ? ok nevermind . we surveyed fo the china phone , web came and graphics tablet . we need to share our money on that okay ? when time is up , report strength . LOL ! we had a hell lot of fun . thanks awak ((:
and awak sungguh handsome2 tao .



heres a little note those who wants to terasa .
i dont give a damn if you have found someone new , it doesnt even tickle my heart a little . but if you want to play this kind of game , its better to forget it . if you were on the net to publicise and brag about you getting a new bitch & so is the bitch getting a new jerk , get a life okay ? whats your age now to play all these stupid ridiculous childish game ? to make me jealous ? now please , get it right , i am not jealous but proud of you . because it all seems so vague . its easy to make a sentence but its hard to understand what it means . get it ?
i pity you lah , you get th wrong one actually . the bitch that you get yourself obsessesd to , is a touch and go lor . kids nowadays are so fanatic .

keep track fo more update .
though 2 hours have passed , i swear i miss you like crazy .
ILY