ello lovely people . another update fo you guys ((:

things have been a lil chaos fo sometime & im all devastated at th very peak . but now , things are lil better , im trying my best to go on smoothly on everything . it is saddening fo i have to face such unfairness in life , but i have to bear with all th challenges and consequences . afterall , i am still learning in life as a human being . well , you dont expect me to be perfect in every little things that i do right ?
in the meanwhile , i have to sacrifice some things just to succumb to the whole new ambience . i cant bear to see innocents to be my main victims when they did nothing wrong at all .
i am sorry fo all the shits ive caused and i am trying to pull it through just fo you .

weekend seems better this time round when im here by your side .
fo two solid weekends , you have been there to bring me out and spend quality time together .
i appreciate everything that you have done fo me .
well , what more can i ask fo right ?
i swear im picking myself up again .
accompanying you was all i wanted to . sorry for the 'taber' in the earlier part , i didnt mean it . im just a lil uptight over some things that i vent out my anger at you .
im thankful that you give in to me and listen to my reasons and forgive me .
i just need to be with someone just not to live in agony when im all alone .



yea , tomorrow is my birthday , but still im not looking forward to it . i dont know why .
ouh , turning a year will be a wonderful yet depressing at times . more responsibilities etc etc .
i am stuck over my future , i dont know what should i do when i have graduated from school .

i just need mom to come back home fast . i miss her a lot . she has been away as she needs to attend to some things over on the other side . i hope evrything went well okay mother ?
and to my auntie , get well soon aite ? i hope it wont get worsen . drink lots of plain water , eat more fruits , have your medications at th right time and im sure you are going to be just fine like you used to . as a niece of yours , ill pray every night fo you Along .

i need surprises . i need nothing else but just one person to make my day . thats all .

see you around people . kinda feel tired and nausea to type things down .
i aint feeling well , alahai , tomorrow birthday seh . i dont wanna turn sick and stay home on my birthday .

ps : i am jealous when im looking at the top you wore yesterday .


keep track fo more updates .