Please, don't leave me.

Friday, June 27, 2008'♥

this post will go out specially to you , so bear with it aite ?

thanks like zillions for tagging me . i appreciate that a lot .
but that is not what i really want from you . for goodness sake !
i wonder why is it that you only start tagging when you were publicised ?
because you don't wish people to think bad about you ?
why is it that the time when i waited for you at your void deck , you did not turn up ?
isn't that cruel of you , to do such things when my intention was good & that is to talk to you ?
but do you give me the chance to explain everything ? nahh , you did not .
i know you have moved on , and i should say this to you , ' I AM GLAD ((: '

i don't even have the intentions to make you be my wall , to be my backbone or my last resort friend .
let me get this straight in your head aite .
and heylo , it is not about me finding you only after the break , i did try to call you , and treat you as a fren like anyone does , but you off your phone . BUT your battery was flat .
but then you deleted me in msn , like wad de hell ? tell me what is wrong with you ?
you give me that drastic changes , like wads up with you ?
ok , i noe your intention was good , you dont want my BF to think bad about you , but why does it have to happen only like now ? then , how about the last 18 months when i met you ? dont tell me you pity me . if you have moved on at that point of time , you would have ignored me in the past . dont tell me you regretted for meeting me up in the first place . im not dredging up the past , get this right . it is something that you have done that makes me cant get over it .

& alhamdulillah , cause you let me be happy with him . so nice of you ((: like only till now you utter those words to me . like after thoussands of me meeting you up . you said that i look out for you when i fight with him , dont tell me i dont sneak out to meet you in the middle of the night even when i dont fight with him . you dont know what is inside me right ? so why are doing all those assumptions ? i look up on you because you are someone who i can depend on . if you dont understand me , you wont be there for me . you were the one cheering me up , and im thankful for all the effort that you done for me . even the time when i broke up with you , realli a clean break , dont tell me we did not meet up ? come on la .

what are you trying to say when you tell me that you were not what you are in the past ? is it meant to be a positive or negative ? and how can you convince me ? i dont even care la if you have changed or something okei . let me tell you this , this is not what i am referring to .

so you are trying to tell me that im stuck up kid ? pardon me , it is you that makes me feel stuck up . go reflect and lets not talk much . because i find it like so kental berbual kt net lah kan . tkot ngn bayang2 sndiri ?

omg ! and you mentioned that i have dumped you ? haha . nice shot brother . because you get it wrong . you make me feel so shitty you know that ? start changing after i dont have the heart to continue with your freaking attitude sume . you lied to me so much , even when you go club . haha . i still remember what had happened . and even fareez cover your bontot okei when you went there . when you went there , you lied to me ? tell me uh . you said you chilled around , like heylo . im not that freaking stupid . and you asked me , ' ouh , fareez pegi club bolei pulak. ' like a big wtf kan ? me and him has got nothing to do with each other at that point of time . you big fat liar .

enough said , im so tired .
but let me tell you this , the reason as to why i cant over it even 2 years has gone .
go reflect and ill give you out some clues aite .
it happened opposite my block , block 476 .
it is around 12 ++ and you did not let me go home .
we watched little man earlier with my sister and her ex-BF.
you wore the green shirt i bought for you .
go figure ((:

Thought of You @10:11 PM