Wednesday, June 18, 2008'♥
i was like freaking tired la kaannn .
i have not been doing or adapting to these ton-ning for so long okei .
so since dah single - mingle ni kann , i take the freedom i have to do whatever i want .
it was unexpected , never do we plan right friends ?
so wwe intended to stay til 4 or 5am .
but then we ended up till 9 am okei .
we were laughing in the morning around 7++ , when people are rushing to work .
me and my nonsensical behaviour ((:
well , yesterday , i just felt like going there and waited for you .
i knew you have reached home . but i just sat there . maybe ill just waste time while waiting for my friends .
so it happened unexpectedly . i give it a very last shot .
i hope those are promises , i hope you wont turn me down .
im waiting for these days .
well , ill just have to wait for you to wake up .
waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting
i talked alot with my friends and we were damn noisy sia .
they were 4 of us ; Hafiz , Me, Jaja & Dzuhir .
so we talked from topic to topic ; relationship , experience , life , death , secondary school days , opinions & many many more .
mom randomly askd me for the second time .
mom : you broke up with fareez is it ?
me : -.- yea . like finally ((:
mom : because of amir ?
me : yea , and many other stuff that i disagree with fareez . a if hes so purrfect .
mom : ouh okei . i guess you should not get too tense with that adek .relax , cool yourself down . think what is best . if that is what you want , work for it .
i told mother everything , from A to Z . how it all started , and how it all ended . i did not only list down his mistakes , i did mine too . & i felt better after talking with mom , like a bestfriend of mine .
thanks mama , i will listen to you .
i would take these opportunity to thank my dearest bestfriend , NOORILYANA for being there when i am really down . she has helped me throughout till the shit has ended . and she accompanied me till wee hours just to prepare something . and she msged me to know wads going on during hols . thanks yana , for being there , for setting aside a lil bit of ur time for me , for cheering me up , for thinking some of the way out and possibility . you advice me alot alot alot .
and to NURANIZA ANIS, who is like so matured la kan (mind her age , she speak like an adult ) . you have helped me alot . you will always keep yourself updated about me and my life . advice things that has never come across my mind .
and to those not listed , thanks . you know who you are . i did my part , i am at fault . well i have my flaws . so yea , a BIG thank you to you guys for cheering me up and supporting me from the back .
and now , i guess i noe what i want . and ill work for it and for my future too .
are you willing to hold my hand , and walk towards the sun , and start everything anew without dredging up the past ?
im looking forward ((:
praying for the best
and to you ; all guys have ego , but what matters most is how big their EGOs are . but i guess yours is too big , that you behave like so childish . please la , i aint someone who shares the same mindset as you . thanks for waking me up . i just wanna see like till when you survive (bbl bongkak kan ) . dont tear , be strong . for all these while , i think you suit to be my bestfriend . you are wrong for revealing your weaknesses towards me which i very much disagree to your stand . take care siol ((:
