Tuesday, May 13, 2008'♥
train ride on saturday was effing great ! i bumped into this kid . and he loves to smile . he will keep on sticking out his tongue at me and i did the same back to him . and he will laugh and do it again and again . till bf said , 'gf , you're turning 19 and you're depriving ' . im not ok ! but i just love the way he reacts . that boy is so so cute . and i snapped his pictures . apology to his dad for not asking his permission in taking his son's photo .
i didnt managed to bid goodbye to him and i was sad . we alighted at the same stop but we went on different direction . i kept on looking at him and said bye , but that kid didnt turn around . urgh !
we managed to get things going now and i am proud to say that we are finally out to somewhere just the both of us . yes , the day i have been waiting for . we realli catch a lot of things left amissed together at coffee bean . appreciating each other and laugh our heads off .
i am happy that we can get things in place now though it may seemed hard to do it way before . but im proud because all you care was me and the relationship . i dont wish it to end even , but sometime i just need sometime alone so that ill get to reflect and minimise my weaknesses .
i am sorry for being a bloody ego when we fight .
i am sorry for not bein there when all you want is me .
i am sorry for provoking you and worsening the matters when we fight .
i am sorry for not being a good gf for the past 17 months .
thanks for making me wake up from lala land .
i appreciate that so much .
and i owe you something that cannot be paid by money .
i owe you , Fareez Azhar ((:
noorlyana bte nooresani , i kinda get worried over you . you really didnt take good care of urself till you fall sick . hope you ' ll get well soon alright ? drink lots of plain water .
yes i noe it is hard to stand up after a hard fall but i just cant seeem to have the idea as to why he left you when all you do was to stay true ? i noe how it feels to be accused when you dont do it . it is frustrating and there is only a lot of whys in your head which cant be answered . but for now , i guess it is better you guys get some space , reflect and think of what you guys wanna do in the future . cmon , i dont want you or anione to give up in relationship . you guys have been in love , spending most of your time together , and the next second , you guys are nothing ? not even friends , with one party just on his/her stand without having to think on how the other party feels ? why is life so unfair ?
yana for wadeva reason , be thankful to god for these are the challenges that he gave you . He wants to see how you will find solution to the problem . just be strong and do whats best for you . but to me , sacrificing once again wont harm it .
' hidop ini tidak akan lari dari masalah dan cabaran '
nurul faizah bte samsudin . please la , wads with all those nonsensical rumours ? why you keep on doing all those things that is so against our religion ? tell me what will you obtain when you kill yourself , when you commit suicide ? come on wake up your five senses . dont end your life because of a guy . do you know that with your attitude like this , you are jus creating a bad impression on yourself . wads all these ? come on , i dont think this is a puppy love , even if it is so , you wont go to the extend of commiting suicide . you are 19 this year , cant you just think ?
you have a stable life , career and finance . wads there for you to worry even if you dont have a guy by ur side ? its not the end of the world .
im sorry to say this but you are just stupid and have no brain to think .
& i love this hair so much ((:
done people . im tired .
do wads right and may god help and guide you ok .
tekkaire
Thought of You @9:09 AM
