Saturday, May 17, 2008'♥
i would rather live my life alone now then having someone who doesnt care . hope my absence would atleast help me cure this wounded heart .and reflect on 17 months , i am yet clueless as to why im still here , making this relationship real . when im just clapping on one hand . and i hope that i wont love you too much because all i get is excessive tears .and hanging up of fons . after all , i have to force myself to smile again . im starting to regret .i swear even till now im in tears . really .i wouldnt want to tell you because its worthless .i dont want anyone to console me at the moment . i just need sometime to be alone .i'll promise myelf not to miss you too muchi'll promise myself not to love you too much i'll promise myself not to cry because you dont want me to i'll promise myself to keep quiet whenever we fight .i'll promise myself not to be an enthusiatic party in the relationship i'll promise myself to move on bit by bit i'll promise myself not to care much about the relationship .i know you dislike me asking for a break whenever we fight , but in the first place , dont you feel guilty to at the least for making me cry ? i know you dont and you never will . do you know that im suffering ? do you know that im facing with lots of challenges ? so you told me you were there to support me right ? i need examples and case study . you are killing me softly .this time , i wont break my promises because when i say something , you will provoke me more and worsen the matters . and everything goess back in a circle . after talking to you , its futile and useless .tell me at which time you were useful ?Labels: realy, remorseful
