Thursday, February 21, 2008'♥
time check : 243 am . i find it hard for me to sleep early nowadays . i dont realli know why or have the specific answer to it . it wasnt a great month for me because i have to handle with people of different characters and different problems . yay ! its tedious , because i have been fighting with him badly these few days . we are struggling hard to uphold the relationship , but its always me that give up easily . reason : i donno ! way back then , i wasnt like this . yes i noe . i will be the one who would run after the guy , plead him not to break , wait at the doorstep till he returns home . cry till i got sore eyes . i would sacrifice anithing or everything . so long i get to be with the one i love .but now , it seems so different , i was the one who would give up and he would be the one running after me , wait for me at the void deck .call my mother ro xheck on me , cry on the phone every night and tell me how much he loves SYARACE . but yes , i just wont listen . and i dont noe wads up with me , i felt frustrated with myself . it would be stupid if i reveal my problems in here , it would just add on to laughters and sarcasm to the public . it is also the same as revealing my weaknesses in here . so , its better for me to let the personal matter be just the way it is . even if so , the environment wont change and i still have to deal with it . ill be a strong woman , no matter what . i will go through all the challenges and obstacles that i have yet to face with faith . and to those people who has been with me through thick and thin , i realli appreciate it a lot . thank you .and baby , its not that i dont love you animore . org giler dan bodo jek ckp die tk syg kan . so yea , let time heals everything . i thank you for being there to accompany me in the evening ro watch the sun sets and watch the moon in front of us at the tasek . thanks for holding on to me when going down the steep , rocky slopes . yea , you sacrifice a lot for me . even the little2 things show . i would like to make a public apology . listen to this :im sorry fareez azhar for hurting you , for being secretive , for disrespecting you , for being rude to you , for retaliating to whatever you say , whatever that i have done to make you feel upset about it . i will and i must change in order to let this relationship go far . i am not done with you , seriously .' i want you to wear that ring for me on the special day 'and currently , i am so in love with shawty get loose . it just makes me wanna groove to the beat whenever i tune in to that song . chris brown is loved okei ? my idol .baby , no matter what , you are always my idol . and no one can replace my idol , fareez azhar (:ouh . jiwng kan kite . stop it ehk .people start tagging lah ! blogg aku mcm mati gituk !! ):
