Please, don't leave me.

Monday, May 28, 2007'♥

updates!

hey peeps!
it has been a wonderful weekend for me.
i enjoyed myself.
our 6 months anniversary was great though i thought it's the end of us.
he msged me asking for a break.
and i sacrifice everything hoping that one day he'll realise his mistakes.
i was so demoralised by his words. but i force myself to be strong.
and i let him go.
i cant force him ryte, can i?
so i cried and sing few songs, reminiscing the past; our memories.
it was a terribl breakdown for me.
haish
and he called me right after his match.
and apologised for his words.
i close one eye.
and i dont wish to spoil it any longer thinking that it is our 6 months.
and we took pictures and had our dinner at KFC.
we tour ard at carrefour and i bumped into Boon Gay.
said hi and we did a little bit of conversation.
and walk off to marina
bought cigarettes cause both of us are craving for ciggys.
isk.
and went back to his homies.

i find it stupid later on sunday.
i picked up the courage to tel him off face-to-face.
that we need to go seperate ways.
it isnt because i dont love him anymore.
but is just the way he treats me sucks big time.
i couldnt tolerate anymore beautiful scene of his.
cause it creates a pressure and a burden to me.
so it is best that we go seperate ways.
i still love him but is just his words makes me think deeply.
and his words left me in doubts whether he truly, madly and deeply in love with me.
so better to keep things this way.
cause i just cant stand all these animore.
i was hoping that he will change one day.
and i was hoping that he will realise one day.
i just want to make him think before he say.
i need a life man here!
i wanna blast off!

till here my post.
ill post ard when theres something great happen.
cause i hate saying things when im sad
and my bloggy will sound so dull.
same, im not going to talk about my typical life.
going to skool and stuff.
better keep things this way.
ill just post when there is a need to.
to blog-hoppers im sorry if i didnt meet ur demand.
i dont find a need to blogg animore.

i deserve a smile for what ever shit is happening between us.
dont tell mi that im ungrateful.
i dont like showing people how sad am i.
it is best to keep things within my heart.
no one will know the problem im facing right now.
to syareez, say that a goodbye.
it is the end of us.
keep others as memories between us.
im not throwing it away.
but i couldnt stand the pain.
we end our rship here.
6 months and a dae.
till here then
take care peeps.

Thought of You @2:34 PM