Please, don't leave me.

Friday, May 04, 2007'♥

im in the class right now.
im feeling so low-spirited due to wad had happened yesterday night.
neither can i believe wad had happened.
it is truly disappointing.
maybe its too personal, that i dont feel like sharing it to the public.
but anw, i cried last night. i couldnt accept the fact that it happen.
and he really did it.
my life is filled with wrath.
sorrows written all over my face.
tears rolled down my cheeks and i did not had a great rest yesterday.

i havent had enough of him and im not giving up.
we're 5 months down the road and im not going to throw it awae just like dat.

but please for once!!
spare a thought for your girfren here!
and i want u to think!!
think about the consequences that ure gonna face if you do it.
have you ever wonder why i didnt want to scold you?
matter of fact, WHY i dont wish to scold you?
why i quit smoking?
why im trying not to hurl vulgarities at you?
WHY? WHY? WHY?
because i love you!!!!
and i hate just because of the little shit, we make a big disaster to our r'ship!!
omg!!
YOU ARE REALI PISSING ME OFF!!!
LIFE IS NEVER FAIR!! I KNEW IT!!
BUT THIS IS TOO MUCH!!
DONT I DESERVE THAT HAPPINESS IN LIFE?
WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN?
DO I LOOK LIKE A PROBLEM-SOLVER?
I HAVE TOO MUCH THING TO THINK OF
PLEASE!!!
SPARE A TOT!!
IM NOT BEING TOO DEMANDING.
IM ONLY ASKING THESE SINCERITY AND HONESTY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP
THAT IS ALL!!!!
think la ais, ure big Enough though.
dont expect me to teach every single thing about r'ship.
what if i do that to you?
how do you feel?

you want a time off?
is it because ure guilty?
huh?
okok, ill try to understand you now.
u can have it ok?
get back to mi wen ure ok oredi.
i tink i deserve a time off too.
i had enuff of letting out my frustrations.
enuff for todae.
bring that smile back on my face.
as ive promised, ill come over tml to give u moral support.
you take care!
bye.

im in deep depression.
i hate this to happen. and now, ive let off all my anger.
dammit. i hate my own attitude.
i hate scolding people.
if u ever were to drop by at y blogg, dont get offended by my words.
coz DAT IS SO NOT ME!

IVE GOT THIS ICE BOX WHERE MY HEART USED TO BE
IM SO COLD.

Thought of You @10:17 AM