Monday, May 21, 2007'♥
hey there peeps.
here i am again after disappearing during the weekends.
hah!
my net is down at home so cant rant.
i can only have my say during the weekdaes, during my second break.
well peeps.
this is going to be a long post.
so hope you guys can bear with it.
if not, dont hesitate, u can close whenever boredom strikes you aite.
happy reading.
so here it goes!
lets start off with saturday.
i was at home almost half of the day.
then he called me up, saying that hes coming down to meet me up.
i was so happy because i miss him like crazy.
he came then we play comp at macdnald.
after which, i went back home to put my stuff.
den back down again to watch soccer.
man u vs chelsea.
ive been sitting at the coffeeshop with him for a solid two hours.
and to our disappointment, chelsea won.
well, its ok. maybe they deserve it.
i dont know.
so no bus cos clock strikes 12.
he overnight at my house.
i was happy.
on sunday:
my mother made a tea for him.
and heat up pizza for him.
he was so quiet.
i dont know y.
in the afternoon, he went off.
i sense something is not right.
but its okie. i try to keep it low.
dont wish to rebel you see.
as time passes by, he ask me out to the library.
jsut because of a minor thingy, he create a disaster out of it.
he went out.
and i sacrifice by making my wae to the lib to search for him.
and im telling u, i cry like a baby who lost his/her parents.
i gave up.
i went to his void deck.
i was hoping to let him realise how worried i am.
but the moment he saw me, he's like scolding me.
and we sat down at a place.
and he ask me to foget about him
how can that be?
im so disappointed.
and i cry like a piece of shit.
he said he needs a time off.
ok, let it be.
i cried like hell.
then i went near my house and sit.
and think.
i dont wish to go back home with tears rolling down my cheeks.
i dont wish my mom to see it.
cos shell start asking me lots of questions.
she will be sad if ais is no more there.
and now, im left clueless.
hoping this heart will heal soon.
its a severe breakdown.
theres no way for me to smile again.
please, find a way out.
counting down to this saturdae, marks our alf-a-yr anniversary.
though its still growing, im proud of it uh.
ive learnt alot in this relationship.
to whom it may concern :
GDLUCK! pray hard. ull pass!
ps : i love you =)
holding back those tears.
that smile is full of sorrows.
please bring back those happiness in my life again.
depression, syareez aka shaheda aka syareda
cause my heart is in the same old condition that baby i did
and i
i apologise for making you cry
took me in my eyes, and promise me you wont do me the same
Thought of You @2:02 PM
