Please, don't leave me.

Monday, May 14, 2007'♥

hey there peeps.
kinda bored in class so decided to rant.
just to kill the time man.
yea yea! and im having my audition later
.duet with yana2. ready yana? LETS GO.
ok, im afraid im not going to sing well.
cmon uh, in front of judges who is not my friend.
but, ill try my best.

hey, doubts are still in my head.
what ever it is, i dont want to face all these!
im still young and couldnt bear to face such a big responsibility.
what is exactly on my mind?
please, throw all these negative stuff from my head.
and GOD please make it happen.
i mean what ive been wanting.
okok, i dont wanna talk and dwell about itjust have to bite on my fingernails and wait for the time to come.

and yea! dats the end for today!
tomolo ill have to turn on my hyperactive mode ON!
im gonna blast off tomolo!!
me and dear ais planned to watch jangan pandang blakang [dont look back] movie at marina.
only if he finishes his soccer fast.
we had a terrible misundertsanding..
and now we're okie.
and yea yea! im mitting him later soon!
so hope..tick, tick, tick.
there goes the time.
turn it to 8 and he'll be there.
and i miss you terribly la..

baby ais.
im really sorry for hurting you every now and then.
i know.
you can put the blame on me.
i didnt change.
i didnt understand your lifestyle.
i noe im too demanding.
and you cant fulfill it.
despite that, you nvr fail to turn to me when you're free.
you make the effort to msg mi every nite, after an intensive training.
you sacrfice alot.
i just dont see it.

and now, ive realised.
and i wanted to let you go.
its not because i dont love you.
but i have to for the sake of your happiness and im BAD.
im the one who is so self-centred.
just think about myself.but u insisted.
you still want to be with me.
i looked down on myself.
for hurting a guy like you.
who dont deserve to be treated that way.
and i know u deserve someone better.
but u turn to me, comfort me, wipe all my tears and ask to start our life together again; anew.
i respected you for who you are.
i love you more than anithing in the world.
i didnt want to be with you because of fame, but more of who you are.
and now, i want to make a public apology to my dear2 ais because my attitude sucks big time!
im so so sorry.
ill be on my two feet.
and i have to start thinking like a young adult.
and i do want to uphold our relationship.
if i want to go far with ayg..
i would better think about you.
and together we mould our future.
forever yours ill be baby.
i hearts you!
you are the only that is in my heart.
now, tomorrow, nxt week, nxt month, nxt year!
insya'allah

may God Almighty bless our relationship.
not forgetting both our parents.
insya'allah.

Thought of You @2:38 PM