Friday, December 03, 2010'♥
My blog is eligible fo a display over at th museum already. So berabokkkk
Saturday, October 09, 2010'♥
After working with m1 for 4 months, i got my confirmation as a staff here last thursday.it was indeed a good news and i am really glad.but its saddening when my initial plan was to leave. Now im left with doubts. I hate working on shifts,i find myself like no life.omg.
Im all lost not really knowing how to go about it. But i really hope that god has something good stored fo me in th future. I wana pursue my studies and graduate with a degree.this is what i aim in my life now.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010'♥
I'm having a good rest till I get so bored staying at home even only for a day. Yes, I am back after months of abandoning my blog. Pardon me for the seldom updates here.
Well, prolly because I am emotionally unstable that I tend to turn to my blog to let this out. Like it will always be since I have no one else to turn to when it comes to relationship.
I don't know where to start or how I should start ranting. I am all forlorn with what's happening to my relationship. I could not depict the whole picture because it happened so fast this time. We had the biggest and worst argument ever and I could not swallow all the pain at once. It hurts me so much to see you leaving without looking back. Neither do you call nor text me even when I initiate the move. I don't want this to end either. Why was there a sudden change in you? Why does it have to end this way?
I'm tearing while typing this down. I don't know when will this tears come to a stop. You prolly don't understand how I feel after years of knowing me. You still choose not to. I went to the doctor alone, do you even care to care in the first place?
I don't know where have I gone wrong? Neither do I know what is my mistake in this relationship. I know I did something that you detest ust by reading her blog, but that should not be the absolute reason to end the relationship. Maybe you are ust finding my fault, my mistake so you can leave me for good, but sad to say, that's not good enough.
You weren't there when I'm in need especially after the bruise that I've gotten. You left me ust like that in a piece. How could you? I don't wish to spoil you nor your future. I still think about you and I truly respect your family. I lied along the way to whom I met when they ask me the same question that your parent asked, when I know I'm not supposed to. But I did that because I love you. But you still do not see it. What more can I do now baby?
Don't you see how much I love you despite all that had happened to us, to me, to our relationship? We have come this far and you told me to end everything ust like that? You take this as a puppy love dont you? I told you I want to settle down but do you ever pay close attention to whatever that I've got to say?
Baby, I still love you. You got me begging right on my knee. You knew it right from the start. Don't take the slightest mistake as a reason to end everything that we've built. You know it ain't easy to maintain this relationship, you know we went through alot of shit but we still hold on tight to each other's arms no matter what comes to tear us apart.
Why does everything has to come to an end. You told me to find someone new, but running to someone else's arms in not the solution. I don't wana make people out there as a punching bag. I still need you in my life. Please.
Labels: please come back.
Thursday, September 23, 2010'♥
I guess it's a norm that whenever I want to rant here, I will actually ran out of idea when initially I've already planned what should I rant about the next time I am free. Forget it, when I am in the mood, I will do it. Now, syncing Iphone this and that and doing updates for my iphone. Busy with work? yes, like forever like that. CHIAO!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010'♥
Sometimes i feel so mad that i feel i could tear up skin apart but sometimes i feel so sad that i could go on crying for hours like a baby.
I am all mixed up with the feelings im having right now. Or maybe, im confused? I dont know. I cant seem to get th whole picture to the arguments we had that leads to you making a harsh decision. I told you i had breakup; so which part of th sentence that you do not understand?illiterate? That may explain. Kimak cockup uh sia prangaiiiiii.
I am sad too. I mean who is not? Exception on people like you who is so heartless. I have been with you since god knows when and now you decide we should part ways? I think th whole idea of yours is totally absurd and invalid. I aint a kid and i am 21 abd you are turning 22 so please behave like ur age and not a two year old boy. Please start learning how to zip up your pants can?
I cant do this. Ill start writing ubwanted things here.
Anws, i think im falling sick, yet again!
Sunday, August 15, 2010'♥
I am all shagged. Been working for the past 4 days. Moreover on shifts. :((
Well, actually i have no objective for today. The fact is that im all boring, got nothing to do.
Okay here's for you baby- it has been so long that i mentioned your name in blog. I just want to drop by to say that i love you so much. Thank you for being there for me especially when im in need. We have gone through a smooth sailing relationship. I hope it will remain this way and even if so, we are able to stand together to go through all the hurdles in life together. I love you just the way you are babyyyy :))
Guess what? Im suffering from a bad diarrhea. This isnt good lor. Even if i have consumed medicines prescribed by the doctor, it still does not get any better. In facy, it got worst okay. I aint kidding.
My body is running out of sodium and potassium, how? I need 100 plus.
Monday, August 09, 2010'♥
I took out my tagboard due to nuisance people who do not know how to utilise it the right way. And it annoys giving me links which is totally out of my thought. Spam? Erm, maybe. Im in no shoes to judge about it.
Ill insert my tagboard after ive done the necessary changes.
Sunday, August 08, 2010'♥
Im actually blogging while working. Calls are very limited so can goyang kaki a bit.
Calls regarding iphone 4 is crazy last time. Ever since no more reservation can be done online, calls has decreased.
And now im waiting for customer to call in as well as waiting for my meal break at 8pm. How dreadful can that be, over the fact that my shift ends at 1230am. Suck more.
I am sleepy, forever.
Friday, August 06, 2010'♥
Sorry fo th lac of updates.
I will update you tomorrow cause it is mu off day. Wait up yeah.
Friday, July 30, 2010'♥
I have not fully recover from my fever. Right now, im facing dry cough and it really annoys other humans. When i cough, everyone will start to look at me with these faces. Hello, like you never cough like that.
Next thing, bf has been sick for almost a week. Hr insisted on going to the docyor. Oh my, im really runnibg out of idea. Ill pray hoping that he will recover fast.
Now, my cousin at perak is hospitalised. Im very much concern about his health. Doctor claimed that the chances of him recovering is 50 50. Moreover, he is in icu and his health is at the critical state. Mom is over at perak to take a look at him. Im really sad. I remembered the time when i went to perak months ago, he seemed all fine to me.
Now everything came crashing down on me. I hope everyone is okay :(
Monday, July 26, 2010'♥
Guess what? I'm down with a fever, sore throat, dry cough, running nose ever since last friday. And I have yet to report to work tomorrow when I'm on the verge of losing my voice. Now tell me - how am I to answer call like that?
Urgh, I hate being sick. Well who likes it?I will spend most of my time on bed resting and do nothing else. But still it does not help me even a little.
I don't know if this is what i want in life but I'll try my best to like it.
Pay is out but I'm contemplating whether or not to shop. Because raya is coming and i have yet to do the shopping and prepare duit raya for the kids. Woah! Now pocket git hole ady. Hahaha!
Update soob people.
Thursday, July 22, 2010'♥
my friends and i have decided to go on a short break to kl in october.
to go sepang to watch moto gp on the 10th.
in collaboration with bf's bday and our monthsarry.
right now, i will need to do a lot of savings for the holiday!
I am really looking forward to it!
hope they will make it happen!
Loves loves :)
Labels: holiday again
Monday, July 19, 2010'♥
I guess i overworked. I woke up in th morning at 5 and get ready for work. Get myself to travel all the way from jb to sg.
And i refused to go home early because i miss my boyfriend badly. Grab dinner with hubby and friends at zam zam and now for a karaoke. And now my head is spinning. I cant help myself to remain active anymore.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010'♥
I don't know what to do now. I am all so bored and boyfriend is away to meet his friend and I'm here lying down on my bed doing nothing but on the phone. And now I'm typing bullshits on my phone.
Tomorrow I'll be on afternoon shifts. I'll be working from 3 pm all the way till midnight. Like no life eh till Saturday. Shucks!
Nebermind, saturday will come by fast without me realizing it. And guess what? I miss my sister who stays at jb. I wonder how is she coping in life right now.
The last time I met her was two weeks ago. We ended up shopping together at tebrau jusco. It was fun to shop with my sister.
Earlier I went to accompany boyfriend to aver cause his laptop decides to misbehave. And I bumped into diniy! Heh hehs. We went to jb, then back to his home. Something happened on our way back at kje, and we were all stunt lah kan not knowing what to do. Had dinne with him and off to home.
Checked out for prices to kl, Bali and phuket. I think we will end up at kl then since I am still not stable yet. I super can't wait!
Monday, July 12, 2010'♥
Yes yes yes! Like finally, the time i've been waiting for is finally here! I am all ecstatic over the fact that I have passed and own a license now.
I was all nervous though earlier on but still I tried my best. And I earned two points for that.
And upon telling my sister, she told me," I have to add a padlock to the car cause now there's a thief. And this thief actually steals car at night." I laughed my ass off, I tell you and she is so bad. But, in the end I'm happy ;)
Boyfriend fetched me from there and off to pay his bike first followed by swensen at vivo for our late lunch cum early dinner.
And I'm at home now all shagged.
Baby, thank you do much for th day. And I know you have been bringing me around here an there. Next time it's my turn ok :) provided my sister gives me a green light
Goodnight fellow readers! Offfff day tomorrow!
Sunday, July 11, 2010'♥
Oh my! It's been like forever since j last update my blog. Like again and again. And it's becoming me a routine to actually apologise due to the lack of updates lately. I have been busy working and running errands on my off day.
Since I work, I abandoned my camera. That sucks. I seldom meet my friends. Everyday is the same; after work, boyfriend will fetch me and then no where to go. He knows that I am tired, and so decide to send me home. He is so sweet lah kan.
Anyways, I bought a new phone; credits to boyfriend. It was really impromptu.
What else? I'll be on evening shift on Wednesday onwards and I will be working all the way till past midnight. Lucky that cab from co. Will send me home. And there's no way that I am going to walk through the spooky ibp to the main road, I tell you.
Now that I have this phone, there's no excuse of not updating even when I'm working because we are taught to multiple-task.
Goodnight readers and wish me luck yet again for tomorrow. :)
Tuesday, July 06, 2010'♥
as much as you insist me to wait for your call, i will wait for it patiently.
i'm left with no other choice and i think thats the best choice given to me.
ever since you left baby.
i feel im thrown away from this world.
I'm doing badly at work.
and my *insert* is malfuntioning.
everything is haunting on me.
and im dying on my own moral and confidence.
Im suffering badly now.
Labels: what else coming
Tuesday, June 29, 2010'♥
pardon me fo not updating.im really sorry fo th lack of updates.i was really busy with work that i hardly had th time fo myself. Was supposed to meet mimi baby fo dinner but she was unable to make it.prolly nxt time ok bby?
Im done with 19 days of training.time flies so fast.im happy to have my cliques ard.honestly,they are my driving force to look forward to work despite th destination.oh yes,tmr ill be permanently working at ibp,jurong east.and yes,thats fate.ill end up there answering calls. So m1 customer,im here to serve you.please be nice.lol. Off to bed.ill update soon.goodnight.
Monday, June 21, 2010'♥
Generally, if I go online to blog or do something, I would go blank because I have nothing to do except for FB-ing. And if I were to update, I would update about work, work and more work. How hectic life can be.
Over the weekends, on Saturday to be precise, I went out with mother in the morning to CPF, Mendaki here and there, all over Singapore. I asked around since I want to make a study loan. I have decided to take Bachelor; double major in Psychology and Marketing Management in Kaplan.
School fees are high (what do you expect -..-) and I am trying my very best to be financially stable.
I guess I need to apply for the course next yar. Because if I do it now, I will start school in September and I am still under probation with M1. So, I'll get myself used to work first before any other commitments starts to come in.
After which, I went to Paya Lebar to accompany my mother, just where I work lah currently kan, like no life. Then sister came down to fetch us and send me back home :)
Later in th evening, I went out with my one and only lover boy. We had a great time of catching up etc. Then went to meet the rest at Bkt Timah. Well, I wish Fir was along cause he is humorous guy lor.
I really had a great time with the loved ones. Thank you mom and love for everything :)
And to my daddy, happy father's day. Though you may not define love for me, I still love you for everything.
Labels: mother and love